Tell me what u want

U called when i didnt expect u to. You showed me that you care, when i thought you don't want to care. What can i say? I really want u back in my life. Yet, i am hesitant that you will suddenly push me away like you did before. Should i rely on you at all as a friend? Do you want me to trust you at all? Sometimes, like u said, it is better not to think too much into the actions and just enjoy the times. But at unexpected times like this, there is an urge to receprocrate this friendship. Yet, i feel like there is a need to resist this urge. This really suck.